…..and the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true.
March 1, 2009
As I write this I am reflecting on this last year and a bit on all my years in the business. My first professional paid job at 16 was production assistant on a thing called Rock-A-Die-Baby in 1974. Thirty-Four years later I am very grateful for all the years and all the experiences. (If you are really bored or needing something to procrastinate with go to the Professional Resume section of this site and you can see the history)
I have been “pinch me I must be dreaming” famous and I have been the actor who nobody wanted hire. I have reviews in the LA Times as a director that looked like my mother wrote them and I have talk my way out of jobs at the network level out of fear. I learned my craft as a director and writer on my feet, making lots of mistakes, doing some good work and once in a while acknowledged with awards. I’ve loved it and hated it. I have believed it was my blood the source of my heartbeat and the thing that would end my life. “The Business” became this living breathing entity and in many ways this giant monster that held complete sway over my life. The business had also changed drastically over the years and fun and creativity were really taking a back seat. I felt romanced and bullied and after about twenty five years found myself constantly adding up the bill and trying to decided if I want to stay in the business or get out of Dodge.
Something changed in the last two years. All of it became real size. I know that that’s a product of many years of working to find the a peace and a clarity in my relationship to what I do as an artist and who I am as person and where these two meet and are inextricably bound. I was given an incredible gift in 2002, a way of looking at what I did as business and how to feel inspired and spacious about the up and downs of the process.
So I am grateful. For everything. It’s really my best option.
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